Make me broken
So I can be healed
‘Cause I’m so calloused
And now I can’t feel
I want to run to You
With heart wide open
Make me broken
Make me empty
So I can be filled
‘Cause I’m still holding
Onto my will
And I’m completed
When you are with me
Make me empty
‘Til You are my one desire
‘Til You are my one true love
‘Til You are my breath, my everything
Lord, please keep making me
Make me lonely
So I can be Yours
‘Til I want no one
More than You, Lord
‘Cause in the darkness
I know You will hold me
Make me lonely
‘Til You are my one desire
‘Til You are my one true love
‘Til You are my breath, my everything
Lord, please keep making me
This song caused me to contemplate whether I could actually say these words to God? Am I willing to let whatever may be come to me if it means I will be closer the Lord? Can I truly surrender my all to the Lord? I am a long way from being there, but as I look towards a New Year, I thought "what would make a better resolution for the New Year than to say to God 'You can do whatever it takes to me that would cause me to seek only You.' Do whatever it takes for me to be able to say 'You are my one desire. You are my one true love. Your are my breath, my everything.'"
It is a little scary to say I will totally surrender, because then I actually have to trust with all my heart. Do I really believe that God is good? Do I believe that everything that happens to me has gone through His hands and serves His purposes? Do I believe that He will give me the strength to endure anything? My head says I agree with these statements, but without totally surrendering I can't know whether I will remember those Truths when the trials come.
So here is to 2017 and my desire to draw closer to the Lord, to seek Him and Him only. God may You literally be present in every breath that I take. When 2017 ends may you and I be as close as a heartbeat. Do to me whatever it takes to move me to where you want me to be. May I be closer to you than ever before.
